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Wednesday, September 26, 2012

how dreams change?

at five,
what do i dream of?
being a doctor?
or a lawyer?
or a teacher?
i do not even remember.
but i know i dream of something.
anyways, that is what
parents and elders
would always ask little children.

but after the worst incident happen,
my father died when i was ten.
something that a little boy or a child
does not dream of.
a lot of things have changed.

i simply dream of surviving
without him.
conquering the fear of living without him.
the what if's and but's
of living just with your mother
and seven other siblings...

then, come in high school at thirteen.
i learned that i can do it by myself.
yes! i am young but i learned it.
work after school 
to have the wants that my mother cannot afford
to give me,
having eight children.

so the dream changed to
i want to be rich.
what do i have to do to be rich.
school, work and dream.

after high school came college,
sudden change of dream.
success does not mean money anymore.
i just want to be known for whatever.
joined glee club in school
dancing which became a passion.
you bet! not any single occasion
that i will not be on stage performing.


and dreams changed from one thing
to another...
on and on and on...

and now,
at forty-two.
on the other side of the planet
where i am originally from...

i have one simple dream
the dream of everyone,
of being with someone
who would love me
with no if's and but's.
eat good food not necessarily expensive.
have a humble comfy home,
not necessarily huge and grand.
and have fun every single minute
with my family and myself.

dreams! oh dreams!
a thing that keep me going...

posted for Bluebell

23 comments:

  1. I love the idea of dreams shaping our lives.... :)

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  2. being with someone is a powerful and appealing dream for sure jj...and i think you accomplished the survival dream too...

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  3. this makes me see the real jj it makes me reflect at my life and the path im taking

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  4. loving the spirit and enthusiasm of this poem. i miss your blog J!

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  5. This is my first visit to your blog and I feel like your poem is such a wonderful introduction. Your poem reveals much about you, your humanity, and the wisdom of your current dreams. May they come true. Nice to meet you.

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  6. may all of your dreams come true.

    fantastic tale.

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  7. our dreams change as we grow.

    glad to see you reflect that process.

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  8. That's really lovely. I'm 53, and I continue to dream.

    Love,
    Janie

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  9. love how your see dreams change at different age periods,

    love your ultimate dream!

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  10. deep, and brilliant dreams collected or compiled.

    masterful delivery.

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